The sense of a goose

I've been watching

The Canadian Geese

for several weeks now.

The seem to want to follow me

wherever I go.

On my run, at my house, on my errands.

They just keep coming.

I love to hear their honking greetings

and watch them change up their formations.

Call me weird.

That's what my kids do.

One of them said the other day,

"Mom. what's your fascination with the geese?"

I answered, "I don't know

they are just so beautiful,

and we are lucky their flight

patterns go through here."

The other day 

while having a particularly hard married day

(oh c'mon, you have those too),

I was on the phone with a friend.

Outside of Wal-Mart,

crying a bit, is where I stood.

Pondering life.

While getting my pep talk,
tears were flowing freely.

I was in a place of major frustration.

Why?
was running through my head and heart
repeatedly.

Why does it not seem to matter

how hard we try?

Why can we not just arrive

where we need to be?

Why do I have to keep working so hard

just to be beat down

again and again?

Let down.

Again.

and

again.

I watched a large group of geese

and another.

Cried on.

Chatted on.

And then God sent me a sign.

In the form of two straggling geese.

They were all by themselves,

braving the big skies

without their group of friends.

They seemed to be in a hurry.

I instantly remembered a story I read

years ago.

It was titled

"why do we not have the sense of a goose?"

It taught that geese mate for life.

If the mate goes down for whatever reason,

so does its mate.

Couldn't we have more loyalty as humans?

I looked up at those determined geese

and wondered of their story.

Then I heard God's voice.

It said,

"Keep going,

don't give up,

you may fall down,

he may fall down

but just like those geese,

you'll get there

eventually.
Go the right direction.

Together.

Who cares

if every single other pair

of geese get there ahead of you.

All I need you to do

is

get here."