Tuesday, January 29, 2013

There is Hope

Does love really hurt?
No.
The lack of love does.
Love is the best feeling that exists.
It's more than a feeling.
It's a state of mind.
And nothing is better than love.
Nothing.

I love someone very much.
That person keeps hurting me.
Repeatedly.
I go to God in prayer
and ask Him to release me
from the hurt.
Release me from the pain.
"Please," I beg.
I don't want to hurt anymore.
I don't want to let myself not be loved.
I want out of it.
Let me out.

This morning I got the same answer
I keep getting.
I've been getting it for years.
Hang on. Hold on thy way.
Keep on keeping on.
Be patient.
Stand by.
Be loyal.
Love.
Even if it hurts.
Do as I do.
Be strong.

Oh, and by the way Alice,
you aren't the best at
loving either.
So maybe you can
change too
while I give the other person
the same answer in your behalf.

That's how God loves.
I wish I was more like Him.
I hope I can be.

You know who you are.
This song is for you.
I'm sorry.
I will try to love better.


When I get done praying
and pouring my heart out.
God doesn't shame me.
He tells me there is always hope.
For all of us.

1 comment:

Donna said...

Beautiful post! I have a hard time loving and accepting love too. I think you should change your major to physchology and be my thearapists. Just sayin....